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Today My Heart Broke
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Today My Heart Broke

Have you ever come to the end, and the person you thought you were seems not to fit? When you look into someone else's eyes and see no glow anymore? When it finally hits you that its over?

Nothing you can do or say can change what is coming next. Knowing in your heart that this is wrong, and being done for the best of reasons, but for the worse of situations. They have to make a decision and live with it, and by the by, you do also. The live with it part at least.

I don't think i have ever truly fallen in love, and that's pretty sad to say at 45. But it comes when it comes and you take it that way. Its impossible to fight ghosts, and when things like children and grandchildren are in the mix, and even being held apart unless you conform, its a battle one shouldn't even start.

She is brilliant and beautiful, personable and witty. Her smile can light up a room. Shes self-centered and selfish, more then a little scared, and doesn't have enough self-confidence. But then again aren't we all?

I want to rail at the gods .. lash out at something, anything! Scream at the top of my lungs and ask "WHY!!!" Give some meaning to why I am feeling like this! Its hard when your all alone and staring at the void and lie to yourself. Things get crystal clear and there is no where to run and hide. She has decided that you are not worth fighting for .. or that maybe shes too afraid of losing something that is much more important to her. Either way you have to face the fact that you are not worth the fight, that you have just flat out come up short.

Its been a quick 5 years, a lot of good and a bunch of bad, but looking back from my perspective, it was all worth it. And even if I had realized I was fighting a fight I don't think I could have won as things went, I think I would still do it all over again.

I'm not gonna go all Hallmark here and talk about letting go and getting birds back, but its strange how appropriate that seems all of a sudden. Not going to do anything stupid either. I gonna have a real good cry, probably several, then I'm going to focus back on my business that is in shambles because of this, and start to rebuild a new life.

I know this hurting will go away slowly, and eventually Ill be the Little Prince and can fondly think of my little fox occasionally.

It still amazes me with everything that's happened and all the hurt that is there, I can still say I love you baby and hope you get everything you need.

Je t'aime


Street Talk

Bro, I am speechless, but here for you. You need my number just holler, and you need to get away you know the door is open.

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  about 9 years ago

Hey Wayne....Sorry to hear of your troubles in life, but as we all know shit does happen and at times is never good. Remember the good times and carry on...it is never easy my friend, we all know this because we have all lived life....and it you live life....you will see good and you will encounter the bad.....it is a sad fact of life bro.....keep the faith....rebuild the business.....and move on the best you can....I have wondered where you got too...Carry Bro....it will get better....Tim

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  about 9 years ago

Thanks man .. We have a private network established and are doing pretty well at it. Just a bump in the road and there are several reasons to smile.

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  about 9 years ago

Hi Wayne, My wish to you is a very good morning and the next parts of the day I have just finished reading your article and I am impressed by its rich content I wish you well in your Internet marketing journey Thank you very much

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  about 9 years ago

Thank you Geoffrey

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  about 9 years ago

Dude WTF happened?

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  about 9 years ago

Life brother .. fought it as long as I could:)

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  about 9 years ago

you gotta msg me on G+ when you get a chance bro

  
  about 9 years ago

Hang in there dude things will get better again

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  about 9 years ago

Thanks Tommy

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  about 9 years ago

Well said, brother! I have loved, married and had kids til one day I came home to an empty house with a note from my now ex wife. It simply said that God had told her that she and the kids would be better off without me. The numbness and funked lasted a very long time. Days turned into weeks which turned to months..... a long story made short is that I still love her and the hurt does fade, but never really goes away. That has transformed my life in ways I did not expect or want at the time, but in retrospect, I have found life and happiness again... I am the personification of the old adage it is better to love and then lost than to never have loved at all. Hang in there bro, We are all pulling for ya!!

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  about 9 years ago

Thanks bro .. I cant believe I did this, but I suddenly realized the one that I went to and spoke on all the good and the bad was no longer there. This house is so bare now and lifeless and all the mundane things we used to do together are suddenly very important memories. I typically don't do stuff like this, but then again nothing has been typical for the last week .. Thanks again bro

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  about 9 years ago

sorry wayne,..hope its better soon

  
  about 9 years ago
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